These times normally occur around a big change in my life, be it a house move, a troubling situation elsewhere in my life or some personal reflection that ends up being more time consuming than I'd hoped.
When the three of these instances occur concurrently, it can often be a blessing in disguise as the lack of sleep was going to occur thanks to one of them anyway, at least this way I have a chance of getting it out of my system before too long.
Insomnia is a hard, emotionally draining experience. The desperation to sleep takes over both your mind and your body, the exasperation of so desperately wanting a relief is almost unbearable. It affects your performance socially, professionally and as a general human being. It's hard to see "I'm having trouble sleeping" and for people to really understand the difficulty this brings.
I tend to turn in several directions. Late night runs are rewarding, pounding the streets of South London with some new music occupies my mind while tiring my body. The fear of getting mugged is also quite the motivator to keep running.
During hockey season, a late night hockey game is always a good watch though tends to excite and interest me as opposed to shut down my brain which is what I should be aiming for.
Music and Podcasts are also a great distraction from my mind, I've always been a bit of an overthinker and the last torturous few months have led me to think and overthink a situation too many times that I worry if I'll ever move forward.
This is my night time playlist on Spotify. Add anything that helps you sleep or zones you out, and any music that could accompany a late night run through Upper Tulse Hill. (This was hard now that Aphex's Selected Ambient Works aren't on Spotify anymore)
"I could sleep forever these days,
Cause in my dreams I see you again"
Bloc Party - Signs
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